A Letter to C
I was once told that life is the mere inspiration that is lived on the root motivation of something. Weather we find that motivation, through God or such, is the essence of our journey through life. I've dedicated this letter to you, C. I've gone year to year, in search of the inspiration and companionship that I long for, yet through the fog and mist of it all, you've always been there for me. You give me the inspiration, motivation, confidence, and energy I need to conquer anything and everything. It's hard to comprehend all the places you've been to, just to be by my side. You've traveled from Cuba, Columbia, Miami, Toronto, New York, and so many other places. I wish through it all, I could have been there for you, traveling from place to place. Maybe then, I would be able to grasp the essence of your being. You give me so much, but in return you take so much from me in countless ways. I can't take the countless days that last from Friday till Sunday, as if sleep is of no relevance. I am only human, and I do require sleep too. I can't stand how after every night we go out and the next day comes, you take a bat to me and beat me time after time. I can't take the countless bloody noses you've given me, I can't stand the money I need just to find you, I can't stand the people you've killed just to be with me, I can't stand how many cigarettes you make me smoke, I can't live with the guilt I have when I'm with you I just can't take you anymore, because of what you require in return. I love life with you, but you're ruining my life in return. I need to sleep every night, I need to study for school every day, I need to keep up with my family, I need to keep my life focused and on track, I just don't have the time you require from me to be with you. We've had great times together, and you've always been there for me, but I'm not sure how much longer this can last. I'm not saying I'm leaving you, but I'm not saying I will always be around for you. In the essence of all that we have, there is one thing I can say that I am passionate and sure that I can say to you without hesitation, "I can't live with you, but I cant live without you."
I was once told that life is the mere inspiration that is lived on the root motivation of something. Weather we find that motivation, through God or such, is the essence of our journey through life. I've dedicated this letter to you, C. I've gone year to year, in search of the inspiration and companionship that I long for, yet through the fog and mist of it all, you've always been there for me. You give me the inspiration, motivation, confidence, and energy I need to conquer anything and everything. It's hard to comprehend all the places you've been to, just to be by my side. You've traveled from Cuba, Columbia, Miami, Toronto, New York, and so many other places. I wish through it all, I could have been there for you, traveling from place to place. Maybe then, I would be able to grasp the essence of your being. You give me so much, but in return you take so much from me in countless ways. I can't take the countless days that last from Friday till Sunday, as if sleep is of no relevance. I am only human, and I do require sleep too. I can't stand how after every night we go out and the next day comes, you take a bat to me and beat me time after time. I can't take the countless bloody noses you've given me, I can't stand the money I need just to find you, I can't stand the people you've killed just to be with me, I can't stand how many cigarettes you make me smoke, I can't live with the guilt I have when I'm with you I just can't take you anymore, because of what you require in return. I love life with you, but you're ruining my life in return. I need to sleep every night, I need to study for school every day, I need to keep up with my family, I need to keep my life focused and on track, I just don't have the time you require from me to be with you. We've had great times together, and you've always been there for me, but I'm not sure how much longer this can last. I'm not saying I'm leaving you, but I'm not saying I will always be around for you. In the essence of all that we have, there is one thing I can say that I am passionate and sure that I can say to you without hesitation, "I can't live with you, but I cant live without you."
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