Anger Within

.. After, years and years of all the struggling, pain, being used, deaths, crying, tears, I've come to realize an intresting thing about myself. I'm almost incapable of being angry. People can use me, they can steal from me, they can break my stuff, they can do pretty much anything to me, and rather than being angry, i'm only hurt. Maybe this is a psychological problem, but in any form, it is some sort of problem. In all cases, I always give a person the benifit of the doubt, and when they don't live up to those "expectations" I have for them, rather then forming some form of anger, I just get hurt from the fact that they could be so much more, but arn't. Now in saying all this, notice how I said I'm almost incapable of being angry. For a while I thought I was incapable of being angry, but after thinking about this problem for years, I realized what could throw me over the edge. Hurting someone I love and one of the more common things, lying. If anyone ever killed someone I loved, they'd suffer a horrible death. And maybe these people wouldn't go as far as hurting someone I love, but rather, they'd start some simple drama, their lives wouldn't be at risk, but rather, I'd make their lives very complicated. Lying, is the other one. When will people learn, that lying is just another form of running away. In the end, it only makes things more complicated. People get hurt, people loss trust, people loss faith in that person. Lying dosn't hurt anyone, but yourself and your image. I would except almost anything a person would have to tell me if told to me directly, but if you lie to me, that pretty much cuts off any form of respect or relationship i'd ever have with a person. Lying pretty much throws me off the edge. It's pointless and agervating.... Although I must point out, a person once convinced me that lieing is sometimes essential for the greater good, when used in conjuction with the truth and the time at which it must be said. The only issue with that is, it's a risk. If thus lie is found out or even suspected before the truth is presented, the consequence would most certainly outweigh the good it was intended to bring...

... I strive to resolve this anger problem I have in time. I must learn to be angry, and not only feel it.. But deal with it.. Other wise it's just a ticking time bomb, waiting to go off in my head..